Wednesday, November 25, 2009

寂寞



寂寞,并不是缺乏朋友的寂寞。
它可以是心靈上的寂寞。
我,不愁沒有朋友,沒有亦無所謂。
然而,心靈永遠是那么地寂寞。
理想的,和現實總是那么遙遠。
我喜歡的,別人喜歡的,總是不一樣。
也許,有很多人喜歡和我我所喜歡的一樣。
其實,并沒有遇見過。
我喜歡文化,傳統,語言,民族。
別人喜歡的是,潮流,先進,外語,外族。
除了玩樂,不知道還有什么辦法可以溝通?
我不愛車子,不愛名牌,不愛什么名華福貴。
若有簡單快樂的日子,我會很滿意。
若有人和我一樣,一個也好,我都很滿意。
心靈還是那么地饑渴。
越來越不明白,我也越來不想明白。
發現我和生活中的人是一個代溝。
對別人的角度來說,我是異類。
然而,總沒有人愿意從我的角度出發。
和社會格格不入,就是不入。
我比較喜歡寧靜的山林,潺潺的海浪聲。
我也喜歡昆蟲的吱吱聲,草木的飄飄聲。
我也喜歡婆婆外婆的家鄉音,音是故鄉弄。
我也喜歡廟里的佛聲,母親口里的佛理聲。
一切都能讓我聲聲入耳。
我并沒有淘汰歷史,歷史卻在淘汰我。
是我在鉆牛角尖?
忽然間懷念起小時候的我,沒有幻想,沒有夢想也沒有理想。
就是天真無邪的童年,一個木訥的小孩。
腦海的知識,帶給了我豐富的人生,也帶給了我很多煩惱。
我擁有的知識,并沒有人能夠了解。
了解了并沒有人能夠分享。
分享了別人認為我是怪人。
如果,繁華社會能夠遠離我多好。
難怪,網絡常是一個說話的好天地。太爽了。哈哈。
我自娛,自爽,有夠爽。
想想清楚點。
人生,我看透。
我,還有百本書等我去看,也不寂寞。
還有佛理,總算可以和滿天佛神談天。
我不理別人的眼光,哈哈,因為我是我。
誰還可以代替我去了解自己呢?哈哈
說到這里,滿心歡喜。
南無消災延壽藥師佛。

Thursday, October 22, 2009

Programmer Life

Oops, has been working in new company a week with non-stop.
No other reason, just I am developer.
The second day, I have been given difficult task.
I was surprising as it sound too fast. No other reason, just I'm new here.
Is ok, fine, I'm happy to work here so far.
No other reason, just I got my job now.
You know, losing a job equal to losing money.
I had been jobless 4 months, imagine that, you were running out of money.
Haha, anywhere, I have the experience, I think it is important to know the feeling.
Why? Because you know the feeling of running out money;
Because you know the feeling of no money;
You would learn "save", "save","save", "cut", "cut", "cut".
But what? is Cost, is money!
Everything you got to consider and think carefully before you spend.
This is good point on the process of learning, I learn the important of saving.
Because I save money, I was able to survive among the months.
Now, I got to work hard, recover my money, haha...
What I'm trying to say here, is don't simply spend your money.
Do save, you will need it suddenly.
Seem not the topic i want to talk, should programmer life.
But, you know how is the programmer life.
Thus, no need to explain here any more.
I'm tired tired tired tired tired tired.......ZZZZZzzzzzzzzz........